the old me..?

yea~ for the past few years i have short hair.. miss those now..

am i?

thx to msjo i have admit that someone sweep me off my feet.. guess what? the feeling got stronger.. keep reminding myself not to make this stupid mistake again, but it just cant work.. hate myself for being like this..
why now? i tried to escape it by working like mad.. i managed to forget it, only when the moment i work.. gosh~
help..!!!

I have not been writing blog post using a notebook for some time. And all that memories came to me while I’m typing this. Also it reminds me how I love notebooks rather than PC.

Here I am, discharged from the hospital in the late morning after spending 48 hours in it due to food poisoning. It is the first time for me to be admitted in such reason. At instant I remembered how I fought the H1N1 virus at home for 3 days. Silly me. I should have admitted then too, but I did not. All that didn’t happened because I’m one stubborn person I think. This time the vomiting made me surrender earlier. Imagine u vomit nearly once every hour and when you thought you would stop when nothing is in your stomach, it did not. To make things worse, diarrhea pay you a visit.  I’m in the midst of recovering now and I’m giving myself excuse for not working on my assignment. BAD me.. hahahahaha

I’ve just watched the movie ‘P.S I Love You’ though I wanted to watch that years ago. Like a phrase aunt Patricia told Holly, “all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead.. Thing to remember is if we’re all alone, the we’re all together in that too..”

at times I couldn't stop myself from wondering those people went to pee or wash the porcelain throne?
.....

>>>>> some indian songs have been playing the whole morning, reminding me it is deepavali tomorrow.
Happy Deepavali, mates..!!!

that mini me

You better watch out,

You better not cry,

You better not pout, I’m telling you why..

Santa Claus is coming to town..

I know, I know it is not even December yet. And nobody knows whether we’ll be having Christmas for sure this year. I like Christmas. I enjoy singing those carols while decorating the Christmas tree. But all these have been just another sweet memory. For the past 7 years, Christmas no longer enjoyable to me. Reason? I did not celebrate Christmas like I used to have. 

I remembered how we used to play a game called ‘secret santa’. How we tried hard to keep our identity as a secret, how we tried hard to surprise that someone and how we being mean. It was wonderful memories. Bit by bit, all the memories revolving in my mind, both the good and bad. Then I remembered how I got hurt. It is painful, but without all those, I will not appreciate what I have today. 

Any moment the clock ticking, counting down to the arrival of nebiru, or so called the end of the world. Suddenly, I have a wish. I hope the 13 of us would come out for a drink, with no hard feelings. Just ourselves and honesty. I wonder could this be true.

lucky one

im lucky.. yes i know that..
why did i think so? yesterday a tree just next to the place i parked my car tumbang.. <(_ _)>
cars kena.. mine tak kena.. very lucky indeed..right?
Gawd blesz mii..!!!

am i being stupid again..?
i think i am..

is it true?

i start to miss something.. a life? an event? or a person? im not sure myself.. i only know one thing, i miss u..

back but not charged

ya.. people said u went for holiday for battery recharging but i dont think so.. guess i shopped too much.. well if u're in hatyai during festive season n did not shop, it is a waste.. they have much cheap items to offer.. kinda surprising that i bought myself a dress.. for a person that does not wear any of them, have to wear one now.. now in working stage really need some clothes for socialing purpose.. people, dont be surprise by my attire when we meet outside ya? LOL~

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Free from exam, I think

I'm blur still, just got up from short sleep in the afternoon. Have been sleeping only 5 hours per night since last week. Anyway, I have finished my exam business in university. hurray

Invited or brought along?

Who cares? What's important, I'm attending~!!! (^o^)/

Everything is putting on hold. Well you can say most of it. I have not been signing in to Bloggers, my blog and Pinterest for some time now. I had too many worries previously. Though most of them solved but there are new worries for now. LOL! Dude, Life never easy.

Weeks ago, I worried over my final year project (FYP), I worried over jobs and of course final exams too. Luckily with a helpful star shining bright at me, I got my FYP 80% done in just a week and I’m able to buy myself time. So one worry gone.

AND I got job. Happy go lucky huh..? My first job as engineer, hope everything I gained within these 4 years are able to pull me through another 3 years of work. One thing I am  anticipating is training in Japan. Sounds fun. Job title? Design Engineer.

One left to worry most is final exams. To be frank, I can’t wait to get my first degree. I have enough of the terrible weather here. It’s time to go, back to books and notes.

Why

If to say my life is very busy, I don’t think so as last semester was worse than now. I think the word would be passionless. Lately, there are something stops me from writing; I don’t feel there is anything interesting to write. On the bright side, I’m still useful so needed by some people while on the dark side, I just don’t get it, why can’t people tolerate with the fact that I’m better than them in certain things? Well only certain, not all. Probably they just think that I don’t deserve it. But then there are certain things I couldn’t control right? Therefore why ‘red eyes’ me when I’m only myself? Humans are complicated indeed.

Btw, I’m on Pinterest now. Drop by for some pictures, will ya? Nicolette Oh.

It is really absurd sitting in the dark alone due to no electricity while it is thundering herd outside. Here I am sweating like nobody’s business as the heavy rainfall does not give any cooling effect to the surrounding environment. So, what to do at this hour? Curse like hell. Previously there is numerous times the electricity gone off just like that. Many blamed TNB for the poor job. TNB blame students for the excessive loads causing whole K.P to blackout. But one thing for sure, excessive number of students in K.P is a problem.

P.S: I’m living in total darkness for 1 hr and 42mins starting from 2am. I can't even see myself.

I have realised

I wonder why people like to act innocent. With the better skills and results, of course they will have better chance. I should have prepared myself for this. Humilation. My results are average. All are so common that you can get this qualification if you randomly choose anyone anywhere. Next question, ‘If so, why didn’t you study harder?’

Let me be frank, ‘Who doesn’t want to work harder?’ I knew this and I want to excel in studies too. But the Lord doesn’t make all of us perfect. One of my weaknesses is lazy. When I think ‘I’m only lazy, I could get better in forcing myself to study’, in the end in exchange for good results, I stressed myself. Doing something you don’t like is stressful indeed. I got better results last semester, guess what, I have no sensed of satisfaction from it yet my family members are pleased.

Therefore to those who started to think that ‘Though I have no interest but since I can manage it just to keep others happy, why not I go for it?’ Think twice. Everything has a price. The price for others to be pleased with what you do is your happiness. 

 

fan girl

I believe myself not a fan girl until hours ago, when someone (two actually) slapped the truth onto my face. Results, I agreed I am one fan girl despite having full intention to deny that. One strange thing, I did not chased after the celebrities’ drama or concerts, neither performances nor reality show. So what make me the fan girl? Take a guess.

P.S: I really love Korean songs very much.

SNSD in Malaysia?

Yesterday marked the first concert by SNSD in Malaysia. Though it is not their personal concert, but the strength of hallyu wave has conquered all, leaving only SNSD mentioned all over Facebook. Since evening, posts about SNSD keep springing up like mushroom after the rain. And thanks to that, I realized there are huge fan base of SNSD around me. lol~

Lately I have been dreaming about Super Junior. The feeling is real, is like they are really by my side and we’re hanging around like a group of good friends. Some may think that I watch videos or listen to them so much leads me to have this kind of dream. But, I have not listened to super junior’s song in recent days. First dream I saw donghae, and eunhyuk. Days later, I saw ryeowook, shindong, donghae, leeteuk and eunhyuk. Yesterday I dreamt about sungmin talked to me, sort of like consoling. Something is wrong with me. Should I go for a checkup?

Good morning.
Things get rougher now, as in my project give me headache here and there. When I really thought that I am in deep shit for not progressing, eventually I managed to make some progress but then I faced problem again. Nvm, get to solve problem means I am on my way to complete that project of mine. A step closer to graduation. Hahaha~

the delayed plan

Plan plan plan, how do you feel when you plan and anticipate something very much but in the end you cant get the plan as scheduled. Not to blame anyone but to discuss the feelings felt then. Scorpions often goes with feel than head. For sure disappointed and sad. Ya,I feel that way. I hate it when my plan dont work. I just hate that feeling. So far, we have delayed our trip,whether to Taiwan or Korea. Too many things have happen and I am not someone with salary therefore going for holidays cant be carried out at instant. The next date plan is on July, venue would either one of the two mentioned above. And I surprisingly I hear one more suggestion from my sister, Japan. Not Honshu but Kyushu. She wanted to go either Hiroshima or Nagasaki and she said I may meet Yusuke-san, my friend I knew through twitter who stays in Fukuoka. Where to go, I shall consider deeply.

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Suffolk House – Penang’s first “Great House”

Cut the long story short, I went Suffolk House in Penang for tea. To be frank, I have not know about this house until yesterday my sister took me there and guess what? I like everything there. The feeling is just great. Unfortunately, it starts to drizzle when I just stepped into the building, forbids my movement to take pictures of the whole place.

anxiety

ya, that's what i am feeling now. i remembered in the past somehow i have successfully get rid of the nervousness from presentations yet the old feeling is back, making me loosing my confidence. time to get some rest. hope i could rest well tonight and perform well tomorrow.

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A cool breezy wind to remind me that I am going to leave hometown soon makes my mood down a little.  The thought of leaving home for another four months and I will be home for good doesn’t comfort me well. I’m not a modern person but due to the fact of living in the city for the past of 20 years, it feels like it’s taking a piece out of my heart while leaving. The drizzle now kinds of expressing the inner feeling inside me, however the sun shines brightly after the soft drizzle give me confidence. It’s time for the last battle in university and this would be an extremely important battle. Now, I shall promised myself that I will do my very best to graduate.

Happy valentine's day!

Happy Valentine's Day to couples out there, also to couples to be. For single ladies, this is the day to confess if you have someone that you like secretly. Well this is just another day to me. A day for me to meet up supplier too. Frankly speaking, from my last meeting with another supplier, I have developed some hatred towards businessman. Yes, acting like a gentleman is a must but being hypocrite is at will. Being an adult yet have no sense in carrying themselves is shameful.

time really flies.. i am worry sick about future.. today i watched those dramas aired on screen years ago, i miss the days when life has less worry compare now.. being worry and scared, i have no mood to work..yet i have to.. sigh.. worry worry

new link, old blog

If you’re able to read this post, means you have been directed to a right place, that is if your intention are to search for sakamotoyuu.blogspot.com. From the day I ran away from university till now, all I have been doing are busy hanging around, playing all over and slacking 24-7. I really need to get myself to work. Sigh. 

Others' contribution to my dull life

I just don't understand why people could not be responsible for what they have done. And because of some people brainless and irresponsible act, university have to take action, of course the action taken are ridiculous as well. All I can say is undergraduates here in my current university have no life. We lead a dull life as social web pages such as Facebook and Twitter are blocked. Indirectly we're told not to make friends nor stay connected with people far away in the easy and economical way.

Again it is time for final now. I aim to study harder this time to avoid those poor results I got last year from haunting me. I don’t know whether I can do it but I will try. I am one of the students who fall asleep after some time studying and I realized I was actually sleeping when I start to snore. Got up shocked by myself, I tried to get myself awake for real. Then, the blog reading mood came. As it is exam period, not many updates I saw in my blog list.

From that list, I chose ting’s blog. She wrote about the events of her going through in the year of 2011. By looking at hers, I feel she has good time through 2011. And something she shared was very true, that something I have not discover until recently I began to understand. I agreed of her saying how a simply act of being content is important yet so difficult to attain at times. Now time to go back to study. 

here comes the so-called-end-of-world year

Hello 2012 and this is the first post of this year. How’s New Year’s celebration? Well I have none, so nothing to talk about. Today is the first day of final exam to start. My revision...I don’t know whether to say it is good. I have no confidence in myself during exams. Those papers are like some demon that took away all my knowledge and self confidence. Also, I think I have become weak in tackling exams. In recent test I got bad results. One is a mistake I did and it leads to cross. Two, I gave up the calculation marks. 10 marks, gone just like that. Now I believe what others mean by when you left study and work for some time, eventually you will forget about study. 

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