It is really absurd sitting in the dark alone due to no electricity while it is thundering herd outside. Here I am sweating like nobody’s business as the heavy rainfall does not give any cooling effect to the surrounding environment. So, what to do at this hour? Curse like hell. Previously there is numerous times the electricity gone off just like that. Many blamed TNB for the poor job. TNB blame students for the excessive loads causing whole K.P to blackout. But one thing for sure, excessive number of students in K.P is a problem.

P.S: I’m living in total darkness for 1 hr and 42mins starting from 2am. I can't even see myself.

I have realised

I wonder why people like to act innocent. With the better skills and results, of course they will have better chance. I should have prepared myself for this. Humilation. My results are average. All are so common that you can get this qualification if you randomly choose anyone anywhere. Next question, ‘If so, why didn’t you study harder?’

Let me be frank, ‘Who doesn’t want to work harder?’ I knew this and I want to excel in studies too. But the Lord doesn’t make all of us perfect. One of my weaknesses is lazy. When I think ‘I’m only lazy, I could get better in forcing myself to study’, in the end in exchange for good results, I stressed myself. Doing something you don’t like is stressful indeed. I got better results last semester, guess what, I have no sensed of satisfaction from it yet my family members are pleased.

Therefore to those who started to think that ‘Though I have no interest but since I can manage it just to keep others happy, why not I go for it?’ Think twice. Everything has a price. The price for others to be pleased with what you do is your happiness.