Humanity.. are we human enough?

Years ago, I left this place. reason? Busy, lazy, have better things to do? Excuses.. yea, that's human. Norm of human side. And I'm not different compare to others, full with excuses.


This morning I cried. For a reason that people would think I am silly to cry for it. But I cried, out loud in the car. It is pouring hard in the morning. Traffic is bad and everyone is rushing to work. I am one of them too. Near a construction site, cars are driving slower than usual. Wondering if there's a pothole, I followed the flow. That's when I saw a poor kitten, in soaking wet, moving it fro legs, grabbing attention of motorist. Its hind legs seems like injured, not moving an inch. I could only watched, passed by and do nothing. That's why the tears came. Feeling disappointed with myself.
When people said you're kind, nice, doesn't that means you helped those people? Maybe to the poor kitty, human is the one injured its legs. Human ignored its struggle in the rain. Human is the most evil one.


The image of the poor kitty's struggle is still in my brain. Tearing up unexpectedly from time to time.
I am not human enough. Dear GOD, please safe the kitty, please have a good, kind, caring human to save the kitty.  Please....

goodbye

she has gone.. this morning she left..
trying hard to look at the bright side but i still cant help it.. i cried..

i never say this to her before.. but i really wish to let her know..
granny, i love you.. and thank you for always being there.. goodbye...

a piece of my mind

recently im interested in watching hk sitcoms.. well not really recently, it has been in me since i dont know when..

so a little synopsis about the sitcom..
a girl as third party used some tactics to get somebody's else husband.. they shared the same circle of friends and one of the friends found out about the girl.. that friend tried to stop it but too bad she failed.. what make things worse is the poor wife found out that friend knew everything from the beginning, thought that she sided her husband and hid the truth from her.. but what actually happened is that friend wanted to tell the wife but was persuaded and convinced by the husband to not to tell.. since the third party looks like has given up after the husband made things clear that he dont like the third party thus friend did not tell wife the truth..

then someone asked me, "if you were that friend, will you tell the wife the truth..?"
probably you will think i answer this question using only logic, still i will say, i will.. why..?
cause wife has right to know.. although hurtful but better than not know anything.. now let me ask you the same question, if you were the friend, will you tell the wife what happen...?

a small apology

To my fren the capital of malaysia,

If you ever came across this post and figure out this is for you (very obvious right), I would like to apologize for misunderstanding you. Not only I think so but we deduced through some hints that you dont like to hang out with us despite you being with us during small breaks (Ok probably you really dont like to hang around with our sarcasm).

One thing I know I'm right, you prefer others than us and we dont mind. Well I used to mind but now no more. And maybe due to that I give you the 'tsk, ppk king lo you' look. You may not be offended but I feel bad for doing it after knowing what really happen. This is a post for apology and this too, a reminder for myself to not to repeat the mistake ever again. Btw hang out doesnt mean have to go til late at night. It is dangerous after all.  XD

love and be loved

To me, creating bonds are one of the most complicated subject. Families are bonded by nature,like it or not. You could not hand pick every member in the family. So we pick friends. That one simple word could bring a lot to us, be it good or bad. Friends could blossom further into lovers or might even end up being enemies.

But, to have successful friendship recipe, you need ingredients like timing, personality, environment etc. These ingredients here might bring you fortune and love. Back then, I dont know that be loved is a very blissful thing. In the end, I drove the person who once loved me away. When I started to understand love, I was waiting to be loved and without knowing, I was in love. Too bad, I was being rejected and ended up heart broken. In the midst of recovering, I have been very stubborn, thinking what's so hard to get someone to love yourself. Actually it is not easy to have someone you love to love you back.

Also, I have slowly learnt that loving someone isnt about being with her/him. It is about how much you could sacrifice. Love is all about sacrifice. So I continously giving my best but in returned what I got is only heart broken. Then I realised love isnt only about giving your best, it is about how you give and who do you give to. Now I enjoyed being love by family and a gang of wonderful ladies. As for that someone, just leave it to fate. Some people might say I am stupid but I am proud of myself for being able to live life honestly. I have experienced been confessed and confessed to someone and I have no regret of doing it.

back again..

hello~

i have been really lazy these days.. yes, very lazy want to online..

today i was asked by someone, saying "dont u have the feel that u want or u should start to date..?"
frankly speaking i did feel so.. yes, i kinda envy when people around me has their own partners.. where they could turn to their partners for anything.. i would like to have someone to share my happy n unhappy things.. but where can i find this someone..? then i started to give myself pressure n eventually become desperate.. believe it or not, i cried like mad when anyone i close to move away from my life.. lately i learned one thing.. being with someone need commitment.. not just think what your other half could do for, but also what could u do for your partner.. if you wish to have a wonderful partner, do you have those good qualities that deserve you to have such partner..? love is about give and take.. before you making long list wishing for prince like man, do you think you have princess like behaviour..?

not trying to make emo statement but thinking this way, makes me realise that i might not ready to receive another guy in my life..

ok.. time to go.. ciao~

the bad temper me..

i have a bad day.. real bad day.. nvr thought that my temper would just burst like that.. sigh..
i dun consider myself unlucky as im not the one have such problem..
i could only say every family have their own problem..

p.s: new year resolution - control my temper..