Humanity.. are we human enough?

Years ago, I left this place. reason? Busy, lazy, have better things to do? Excuses.. yea, that's human. Norm of human side. And I'm not different compare to others, full with excuses.


This morning I cried. For a reason that people would think I am silly to cry for it. But I cried, out loud in the car. It is pouring hard in the morning. Traffic is bad and everyone is rushing to work. I am one of them too. Near a construction site, cars are driving slower than usual. Wondering if there's a pothole, I followed the flow. That's when I saw a poor kitten, in soaking wet, moving it fro legs, grabbing attention of motorist. Its hind legs seems like injured, not moving an inch. I could only watched, passed by and do nothing. That's why the tears came. Feeling disappointed with myself.
When people said you're kind, nice, doesn't that means you helped those people? Maybe to the poor kitty, human is the one injured its legs. Human ignored its struggle in the rain. Human is the most evil one.


The image of the poor kitty's struggle is still in my brain. Tearing up unexpectedly from time to time.
I am not human enough. Dear GOD, please safe the kitty, please have a good, kind, caring human to save the kitty.  Please....

goodbye

she has gone.. this morning she left..
trying hard to look at the bright side but i still cant help it.. i cried..

i never say this to her before.. but i really wish to let her know..
granny, i love you.. and thank you for always being there.. goodbye...

a piece of my mind

recently im interested in watching hk sitcoms.. well not really recently, it has been in me since i dont know when..

so a little synopsis about the sitcom..
a girl as third party used some tactics to get somebody's else husband.. they shared the same circle of friends and one of the friends found out about the girl.. that friend tried to stop it but too bad she failed.. what make things worse is the poor wife found out that friend knew everything from the beginning, thought that she sided her husband and hid the truth from her.. but what actually happened is that friend wanted to tell the wife but was persuaded and convinced by the husband to not to tell.. since the third party looks like has given up after the husband made things clear that he dont like the third party thus friend did not tell wife the truth..

then someone asked me, "if you were that friend, will you tell the wife the truth..?"
probably you will think i answer this question using only logic, still i will say, i will.. why..?
cause wife has right to know.. although hurtful but better than not know anything.. now let me ask you the same question, if you were the friend, will you tell the wife what happen...?

a small apology

To my fren the capital of malaysia,

If you ever came across this post and figure out this is for you (very obvious right), I would like to apologize for misunderstanding you. Not only I think so but we deduced through some hints that you dont like to hang out with us despite you being with us during small breaks (Ok probably you really dont like to hang around with our sarcasm).

One thing I know I'm right, you prefer others than us and we dont mind. Well I used to mind but now no more. And maybe due to that I give you the 'tsk, ppk king lo you' look. You may not be offended but I feel bad for doing it after knowing what really happen. This is a post for apology and this too, a reminder for myself to not to repeat the mistake ever again. Btw hang out doesnt mean have to go til late at night. It is dangerous after all.  XD

love and be loved

To me, creating bonds are one of the most complicated subject. Families are bonded by nature,like it or not. You could not hand pick every member in the family. So we pick friends. That one simple word could bring a lot to us, be it good or bad. Friends could blossom further into lovers or might even end up being enemies.

But, to have successful friendship recipe, you need ingredients like timing, personality, environment etc. These ingredients here might bring you fortune and love. Back then, I dont know that be loved is a very blissful thing. In the end, I drove the person who once loved me away. When I started to understand love, I was waiting to be loved and without knowing, I was in love. Too bad, I was being rejected and ended up heart broken. In the midst of recovering, I have been very stubborn, thinking what's so hard to get someone to love yourself. Actually it is not easy to have someone you love to love you back.

Also, I have slowly learnt that loving someone isnt about being with her/him. It is about how much you could sacrifice. Love is all about sacrifice. So I continously giving my best but in returned what I got is only heart broken. Then I realised love isnt only about giving your best, it is about how you give and who do you give to. Now I enjoyed being love by family and a gang of wonderful ladies. As for that someone, just leave it to fate. Some people might say I am stupid but I am proud of myself for being able to live life honestly. I have experienced been confessed and confessed to someone and I have no regret of doing it.

back again..

hello~

i have been really lazy these days.. yes, very lazy want to online..

today i was asked by someone, saying "dont u have the feel that u want or u should start to date..?"
frankly speaking i did feel so.. yes, i kinda envy when people around me has their own partners.. where they could turn to their partners for anything.. i would like to have someone to share my happy n unhappy things.. but where can i find this someone..? then i started to give myself pressure n eventually become desperate.. believe it or not, i cried like mad when anyone i close to move away from my life.. lately i learned one thing.. being with someone need commitment.. not just think what your other half could do for, but also what could u do for your partner.. if you wish to have a wonderful partner, do you have those good qualities that deserve you to have such partner..? love is about give and take.. before you making long list wishing for prince like man, do you think you have princess like behaviour..?

not trying to make emo statement but thinking this way, makes me realise that i might not ready to receive another guy in my life..

ok.. time to go.. ciao~

the bad temper me..

i have a bad day.. real bad day.. nvr thought that my temper would just burst like that.. sigh..
i dun consider myself unlucky as im not the one have such problem..
i could only say every family have their own problem..

p.s: new year resolution - control my temper..

off day

took a day off today.. went alil shopping and settled some delayed for long business.. happy day..
imagine me in pink shoes..? soft pink.. what do u think?

是时候放弃。。 该死心了。。
不要让自己那么没尊严。。

the old me..?

yea~ for the past few years i have short hair.. miss those now..

am i?

thx to msjo i have admit that someone sweep me off my feet.. guess what? the feeling got stronger.. keep reminding myself not to make this stupid mistake again, but it just cant work.. hate myself for being like this..
why now? i tried to escape it by working like mad.. i managed to forget it, only when the moment i work.. gosh~
help..!!!

I have not been writing blog post using a notebook for some time. And all that memories came to me while I’m typing this. Also it reminds me how I love notebooks rather than PC.

Here I am, discharged from the hospital in the late morning after spending 48 hours in it due to food poisoning. It is the first time for me to be admitted in such reason. At instant I remembered how I fought the H1N1 virus at home for 3 days. Silly me. I should have admitted then too, but I did not. All that didn’t happened because I’m one stubborn person I think. This time the vomiting made me surrender earlier. Imagine u vomit nearly once every hour and when you thought you would stop when nothing is in your stomach, it did not. To make things worse, diarrhea pay you a visit.  I’m in the midst of recovering now and I’m giving myself excuse for not working on my assignment. BAD me.. hahahahaha

I’ve just watched the movie ‘P.S I Love You’ though I wanted to watch that years ago. Like a phrase aunt Patricia told Holly, “all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead.. Thing to remember is if we’re all alone, the we’re all together in that too..”

at times I couldn't stop myself from wondering those people went to pee or wash the porcelain throne?
.....

>>>>> some indian songs have been playing the whole morning, reminding me it is deepavali tomorrow.
Happy Deepavali, mates..!!!

that mini me

You better watch out,

You better not cry,

You better not pout, I’m telling you why..

Santa Claus is coming to town..

I know, I know it is not even December yet. And nobody knows whether we’ll be having Christmas for sure this year. I like Christmas. I enjoy singing those carols while decorating the Christmas tree. But all these have been just another sweet memory. For the past 7 years, Christmas no longer enjoyable to me. Reason? I did not celebrate Christmas like I used to have. 

I remembered how we used to play a game called ‘secret santa’. How we tried hard to keep our identity as a secret, how we tried hard to surprise that someone and how we being mean. It was wonderful memories. Bit by bit, all the memories revolving in my mind, both the good and bad. Then I remembered how I got hurt. It is painful, but without all those, I will not appreciate what I have today. 

Any moment the clock ticking, counting down to the arrival of nebiru, or so called the end of the world. Suddenly, I have a wish. I hope the 13 of us would come out for a drink, with no hard feelings. Just ourselves and honesty. I wonder could this be true.

lucky one

im lucky.. yes i know that..
why did i think so? yesterday a tree just next to the place i parked my car tumbang.. <(_ _)>
cars kena.. mine tak kena.. very lucky indeed..right?
Gawd blesz mii..!!!

am i being stupid again..?
i think i am..

is it true?

i start to miss something.. a life? an event? or a person? im not sure myself.. i only know one thing, i miss u..

back but not charged

ya.. people said u went for holiday for battery recharging but i dont think so.. guess i shopped too much.. well if u're in hatyai during festive season n did not shop, it is a waste.. they have much cheap items to offer.. kinda surprising that i bought myself a dress.. for a person that does not wear any of them, have to wear one now.. now in working stage really need some clothes for socialing purpose.. people, dont be surprise by my attire when we meet outside ya? LOL~

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Free from exam, I think

I'm blur still, just got up from short sleep in the afternoon. Have been sleeping only 5 hours per night since last week. Anyway, I have finished my exam business in university. hurray

Invited or brought along?

Who cares? What's important, I'm attending~!!! (^o^)/