friends..

i had a dream..a dream that i thought i can never dream of..a dream that actually contain happiness instead of sorrow
and loneliness[i thought its full with sorrow before]..a dream that makes me understand my own feelings..that dream eventually caused me to think about
many things.. i thought i hate them,those people that i used to hang out with,,those people that make fun of me,
those people that i used to gossip with,those people that train together and etc.. [it'll take forever if i continues]

then something happened and soon after that,our relationship became worse..i felt isolated mentally..well u may think
its just my thoughts or im too sensitive or so but its true..those that saw how i've changed they'll know.. looked back
at those days,im extremely sad..after all, they're my close friends,my buddies..at least thats what i think back then..
the change i experienced wasnt slow but drastic..it just happened within a week..luckily i was managed to get over it
due to the supports from peoples that i hardly know on the first place..before the incident they're just my classmates..
god still loves me afterall..i tend to reflect back thinking how stupid i am, only hang out with those people that
hurt me..im the kind of person who cant get along with anyone well.. i need time and something to act as 'spark plug'
to get close to someone..n once conditions fulfilled,i'll be with them for a long time..

i dont know whether this consider loyal or not,its up to u guys to judge..however, being with those people, i didnt feel sad..
i mean maybe im stupid yet i really enjoyed the time i spent with them though im being made fun of..to me,i think its ok back
then..im just stupid according to my thoughts now yet i felt happy..dont know why..maybe my stupidness makes me happy..
at times foolishness is a kind of happiness too..being someone who dont know much will live happier..this is the concept i believe in..
previously i was forbidden to know any secrets from them..so when anything goes wrong no one will argue with me..im the
only person that is neutral with everyone but also the least close with anyone..sighh..have to stop this crap..indeed i
write nonsense here..a human without writing skills,this is what u'll get..crap!!!