work post - day 1

[captured from my uniform]

I wasn’t trying to complain anything about my first day at work, just to leave a mark on what had I done on my first day. It was a hectic day, where I finally realized that how fast can time flies. Indeed, with just a blink of eye, my working hours ended. I even go out late for lunch. My colleague, yc [another yc added to my friend list] stayed back just to complete her work. It’s not OT, we don’t really get paid for that, just to finish our work for the day. Poor thing, she got 10 cartons of books to wrap. As for me, I left earlier [after wrapping like mad]. I don’t even give a damn actually. According to the schedule, I was supposed to have training from 10am-1pm. Then later in the noon, I’ll be on duty at the information counter. However, I stayed at the information counter the whole day. Why? Cause the person that supposed to train me aren’t there. She asked my colleague, yc to teach me whatever she knows me. So there I go, memorizing the steps for book ordering, searching for books, trying my best to help the client where I myself don’t even know where is the specific shelves located and what are there in the shelves. The funny thing is, the customers keep coming to me, a trainee that knows nothing. Oh ya, I had fun making announcement. In fact, I ruined my very first announcement. My reading sucks! Not to forget, you have to end every announcement with “..(bla bla bla)… BORDERS, Your Place for Knowledge and Entertainment”. Haha.. The other creepy thing is I don’t even dare to pick up the phone. It’s like a curse or something when the phone rings. I’m not that scared to pick up the phone when I worked in clinic previously. Now, I got panicked whenever the phone rings.

[ my badge ]

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Mothers’ day – a day where you ‘sayang mama’ more than any other day. As usual, we had dinner together at somewhere special to celebrate mothers’ day. Previous years, my sibling and I will tend to get my mom something but this year my mom got us something, that is HONEY! Sweet huh..?? LOL! Mom said, “the two of you are extremely weak nowadays. Thus, this is what the both of you need.” Thanks mom. We’ll try to get healthier with the honey you bought specially for us. XXX

[the honey mom bought.. the big bottle, inside the box.. the thin bottle, limited edition.. hahahaha..]

job confirmed..!!

*while been directed by sakae waitress to seat, hp rang..

me:go on without me..
sis:ok~

....

*after the phone call..

sis: anything special?
me: i got the job~ *shaking my ass*
sis: at borders?
me: yup!

and i got another interview to be scheduled next week.. part time assistant in kumon, sg ara.. well, i prefer qbay than sg ara.. it's FAR~!! so guess i have to reject the offer(again).. and and and i got myself a purple jacket AGAIN..!! ahahhaa.. the old one was too old (but i like it!).. the new one is cool (me like it too!).. gotta run~ heading to gurney for dinner... adios~

am i too picky..??

am i? i don't know. Maybe i am. So far, i got 4 offers, from austin chase (i got that actually but i rejected in the end,due to the amount of money) , dome (same problem with austin chase) , total wellness support centre (seems dangerous) and borders (i am waiting for my interview result). The desire to work in borders are more than everything else, therefore i rejected the others and waited for the reply. However, i don't think i perform well during the interview, unlike the other interview that i had attend, so wasn't confident that i'll get this job. The pay is the highest among all plus i love to be surrounded by books. The place is comfortable and real. No hatred, no jealousy, no overreaction..only originality and knowledge exist around you. Long winded yet interesting. Quiet yet merry. (started to crap..)

..... *signing off* .....

questions..

as a part timer, i thought my job would be simple and not entrusted with many tasks.. i was proved wrong..!! in borders, as a part timer you are entrusted with a shelf of books.. wow..!! that means you have to do all the tasks regarding the shelf apart from duty as cashier and information counter.. but that may happen to me as they havent confirm whether to hire me.. wait for something is a torture,no matter what is it.. *sigh*

how can you tell whether a person is smart..?? based on what you judge them..? results..? or actions..? can level of intelligence be judged through IQ test..? what about stupidity..?? how to determine that..?

*think*

entry of diary - post 3

*sigh*

i dont know what to comment myself.. i dont know how to rate myself.. i dont know why am i like this.. i dont know many things.. felt that im such a failure.. how come i burnt dinner during beginning of every sem break..?? poor mom.. she's my victim.. sighhhh.. this is the reason why i dont dare to apply to work in the kitchen.. and the part of the reason that i quit the job as nurse.. i afraid someone might die because of my blur-ness.. many said im paranoid.. in fact i am.. need to find a way to cure my illness.. i need medicine..badly!!

(keep my fingers crossed for tomorrow's interview.. i desperately want that job..!! wish me luck..!)

uncontrollable..

i just need a quiet place to calm my mind.. why cant i have that..? i dont really like to talk recently as whatever come out my mouth would be complaint.. frustrated and stressed.. why am i faking myself so badly..? putting mask on 24-7 is tiring indeed.. wonder how the people out there do it..watched diary of a wimpy kid.. not very interesting but somehow i like it.. oh ya..!! i got a job today.. as a part timer waitress in austin chase.. sounds not bad.. hope i can do this well..

entry of diary - post 2

whatever i thought is mine aren't mine anymore.. even those that belongs to me originally wasn't mine now.. the only solution is let bygones be bygones..
sighhh..