uncontrollable..

i just need a quiet place to calm my mind.. why cant i have that..? i dont really like to talk recently as whatever come out my mouth would be complaint.. frustrated and stressed.. why am i faking myself so badly..? putting mask on 24-7 is tiring indeed.. wonder how the people out there do it..watched diary of a wimpy kid.. not very interesting but somehow i like it.. oh ya..!! i got a job today.. as a part timer waitress in austin chase.. sounds not bad.. hope i can do this well..